why can't we be friends?

Lately I've been reminiscing about Utah, which led me to thoughts about Roosevelt, and eventually landed me thinking about friendships made there. I cannot believe how lucky I was to have made so many friends through dance, sports, work, and school. I am extremely grateful for the friends I am still in contact with.

So my question is, what happened to the rest of you? Or rather, what happened to us?

Why do I feel like my "best friends" disappeared when I needed them most? Did I make too many stupid decisions or too many mistakes? Was I selfish to think they would always be there? Is it true that people really do choose sides?

Now that I'm married it makes sense that we don't talk every day. My issue is that we don't talk at all. Never.

I love the feeling I get when I talk to a friend and it's been weeks, months, even years. I love hearing what's changed. I love that there is still a real friendship. It may sound dramatic but it gives me a sense of hope for mankind. You know, that people really don't care only about themselves. That relationships are still important.

I admit there are times I have a thought to call so-and-so or comment on something they post on social media and I don't. After avoiding it, I always think why didn't I just follow through?

Truth is, 90% of the time I'm afraid. The other 10% I'm in a rush or just lazy. (C'mon, we all have those days.)

What am I so afraid of? It's just conversation, right?

4 months

K-bug turned 4 months on the 18th and I have to say that time is flying by way too fast! She cannot be that old already! Currently, she is sleeping on her daddy's chest allowing me a few minutes to write. She looks so precious with her squished lips and her cuddly nature that I almost forgot what a pill she has been these last few days. See for yourself :)

We need to find a pediatrician so we can get her immunizations and current stats. In the meantime, here are a few things about our K-bug.

-She loves to grab and hold on to things, especially her toys, my hair, and our phones
-She is camera shy. She will jibber-jabber non-stop until you put a camera in her face. We have to be very discreet when we want pictures :)
-She wants to be independent...but with someone watching her. The moment you leave, the whining begins. Talk about spoiled rotten already.
-She used to like tummy time but now she hates it
-She sleeps through the night (has been for quite some time now)
-She is very possessive of her daddy. He isn't allowed to hold any other babies.
-She is getting the hang of Skype... as much as a 4 month old can
-She is losing her hair :( but new hair is growing in right behind it! Yay!
-She doesn't like to be cooped up in the house all day. She loves to be outside :)
-She has found her feet and will not stop playing with them
-She wears 3 month clothing
-She hates wearing headbands

As for the rest of us, I just accepted a job in Pueblo at a housing complex. I know our intention was to move to Colorado Springs but it just isn't working out right now. I start next week. School is going well for the hubs. He switched his major and will now finish in 2 years instead of 5! Plus he gets to be home with K more so we don't have to find a daycare.